Part 2485 – A Conversation (Of Sorts) With Laura Farsigh.

The glow around her didn’t diminish or over-exaggerate the color of her skin. If anything, it made the darkness of her skin tone even more beautiful. 

There were no wires on her. No more IV lines. No more oxygen lines. She was no longer tight skin on sharp-edged bones. Her hair was lush and full and unstyled.

She was everything soft and beautiful and healthy.

Laura smiled lovingly at their daughter. She stroked the side of Missy’s face, touched individual strands of her hair, traced the curved line of Missy’s engagement ring.

Jeff tightened his grip on the bedrail. Thinking and breathing were equally impossible activities. All he could do was stand there, clutch the bedrail, and stare at his wife’s ghost — in that exact order.

She raised her gaze to him. 

The directness of her gaze hit him hard — as if someone had walloped him with a full sized cannon. It was a good thing she did not speak, for that would have straight out demolished him. “Laura? Is…is it…Are you really you?”

She smiled and floated around the bed to him.

Jeff trembled as he watched her approach. But it was not fear that made him tremble.

She stopped beside him.

He released the bedrail and knelt to her. “Laura. My Laura.”

She knelt as well and peered teasingly into his face. It was such a natural and her thing to do.

His heart hurt even as he laughed. “Laura girl.” He looked into her dark brown eyes. “Oh, I love you. I loved you all of our life together.”

Her hands were both substance and emptiness as Laura cupped his face. Love shined in her eyes.

“Please. Please let me hug you. Tell me it’s okay. Please tell me that I can. Just this one time. This.” His throat tightened on him. “This one last time.”

Her expression turned puzzled.

Jeff wanted to look away or look down. Yet, at the same time, he didn’t want to look away from her. “This isn’t easy for me. But it’s something I need to say. Something I need to do. Laura, I have to do this.” His voice faltered as he tried to continue, “I need to…”

Laura released his face and lowered her hands to his hands. She held them.

 He shook his head. “Let go. I need to let you go. I can’t honestly say that I’m ready and I don’t know if you are ready. But I need to—“

She lightly covered his mouth with her hand. It was a very effective move. Silenced him just like that. She smiled and shook her head.

“But—“

She shook her head again.

“I…I don’t understand.”

Laura spread her hand on her chest and then pointed straight up. She ruefully shook her head.

His mouth opened, but no words came out. Not right away. “You mean…You can’t go to Heaven?”

She held up her index finger and then lowered it into “a small pinch” gesture.

“One…pinch?” He puzzled over that for a moment. “Are you saying that you have to wait?”

She nodded.

“So, it isn’t time yet. You’ll stay with me a little bit longer?”

She nodded again.

“And….then?”

She pointed up again.

“Will you come to us? Will you come to Tessa and I to say good-bye?”

Laura smiled lovingly at him and nodded.

“Laura. My Laura.”

She looked at him for a long moment before disappearing.

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