Part 2307 – “I Wish I Could…”

“LM’s not back yet.” Missy said. “Do you think he’s gone for good or do you think he’ll come back?

Jeff glanced at the door. “He’ll come back.”

“What if he decides to go off on his own?”

Jeff thought it over. “It would be his choice. I’m not going to force him to stay here.”

“I wonder where he would go to. He can’t go back to The Institute. That would just be super depressing. I don’t even know how much of it is still standing. Maybe it isn’t standing at all. Maybe it’s just a whole big mess of pieces everywhere.” She shook her head as the memories surfaced.

Missy ran through the halls of The Institute. Sparks leaped off her back and took hungry root on everything it landed on. Long fiery tentacles uncoiled from her frame. They whicked and whacked floors, walls, ceilings, furniture – setting it all on fire.

“I wish I could say it was an accident.” Missy said.

She stopped as the door to the stairwell opened. A man in a light gray suit rushed out. He held another man in his arms.

“That I simply lost control of my XQ self or that someone else was controlling me.”

A man with white hair and a face that she knew all too well.

“But I knew what I was doing.”

“Antioch!” Her voice was the sound of cracking timber and burning logs

He raised his head and bleared a smile at her as the other man carried him away.

“I knew exactly what I was doing and I wanted it. I wanted The Institute to burn. I wanted Antioch to suffer. After everything he did to me, after everything he stole from me, I wanted him to lose something back. I wanted him to lose what he treasured and all he treasured was his work at The Institute. It was never anything else never anyone else. Just that place. Just his work. Just needles and fire and hurt and pain and selling and and and and….And I didn’t mean to kill him. I didn’t want to kill him. I didn’t want him to die.”



Her tentacles retreated into her body.


She ran to the sound of his voice.

Missy turned her head and looked at her sleeping Raven. “I never meant to hurt you even though I did. I hurt you. I made you afraid. I wonder if you’ll ever really forgive me for that, for running away from you, for being jealous. Maybe you will. Maybe you have. Maybe you’ve forgotten even though you’re clearly not the forgetting type. I wish I could get out of this bed and walk over to you. I wish I could touch you and sit in your lap. I wish for a lot of things my dad probably doesn’t want to hear about but you know exactly what I mean.”

Raven sighed in his sleep.

“He’s just so pretty.” Missy said to herself. “I wish there were no barriers between us. But I will get better. I will get stronger. I will not stay weak. I won’t. My pretty shirtless Raven, I will run to you. Just watch me.”


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