Jay finished rubbing Isellta’s knee and stopped. He moved his hands away. “Okay. I’m going to massage the upper part of your leg. How high do you want me to go?”
“As high as you need to.”
Jay shook his head. “Like I said before, this is not about my needs. What is your limit?”
Isellta seemed to be taken back by the question. “My limit? I don’t know. Her Majesty never touched me like this.”
“I bet she didn’t.” the guard muttered darkly.
“She always…Her touch wasn’t nice like this.” His wings flittered. “She wasn’t interested in figuring me out. She expected me to know what to do. She expected me to want it just because it was her. What I wanted. All that I wanted…” His wings calmed down. “But this isn’t the same situation, no matter how it may appear. You won’t ever do that to me.” His voice lilted the last word into a slight question.
Isellta flapped his wings. He took Jay’s hands and smiled. “So, let’s find out what my limit is.” He laid Jay’s hands above his knee. “Together.”
Jay rubbed the heel of his hand up the front of Isellta’s leg.
Isellta watched him.
The placement of his hands.
The concentration on his face.
Isellta flapped his wings again because he just couldn’t help it.
Jay looked up at him and smiled.
Isellta’s wings flapped faster.
“I hope Robin does come here.” Jay said.
“But he is here. I know he is. I just don’t understand why he isn’t here with me.”
“That is the big question, isn’t it?” Jay rubbed his hand down Isellta’s leg. “But it will all work out. You’ll see. We’ll figure it out.”
“And he’ll come to me.”
“Yeah.” Jay moved his hand back up and stopped. “Okay. Here’s the plan: I’m gonna rub the top side of your leg a couple more times. I’ll do it a little harder, if you’re okay with that. Then, I’m going to switch to the sides and then underneath. That is what I want to do. But I will not do any of that without your permission. I will stop right now, if that is what you want.”
“It’s my choice?”
“Always. With me, you will always have a choice.”
Isellta leaned forward and touched his forehead to the middle of Jay’s chest.
Jay put his hands on the fey’s shoulders. “I got you, kid.”
“You are so good to me, Jay.”
“You deserve it.” What should I do?”
Isellta inhaled Jay’s comfortable scent. “I want to go with your plan. Let’s get this done.” He raised his head and smiled shyly at the guard. “After all, I do have one more leg that needs to be taken care of.”