Part 2141 – Jay Had To Say It.

Maelin considered heading back to Jay’s bedroom without checking on them.

I don’t want to be hit by that fear again. I hated how that made me feel. I didn’t feel like me. I felt so…strange.

Jay would understand if I returned to our room without even saying “I’m back” to him. No.

No, he wouldn’t. He would misunderstand.

He would feel hurt.

She straightened her shoulders and held her head a little higher. “It’s just a fear spell. It isn’t anything real. I can do this.”

Maelin ignored the nervous fluttering in her chest and returned to the monitor room. She took a deep breath before opening the door.

The fear was gone.

Not even a trace of it in the air.

She exhaled. “Jay?”

She entered the room.

Still nothing to be afraid of.

“Jay?” She stopped beside him.

Isellta was sleeping against Jay’s arm. His left hand was curled in a loose fist against his chest.

“Is everything okay?” she asked.

“Yeah.” Jay took a breath as if he were about to speak.

“What’s wrong?”

He exhaled. “Mae. I want to know the truth.” He focused on the monitor before him. “Would you be better off without me in your life?”

She gaped. “What?”

He still didn’t look at her. “I saw you on the monitor. It’s happening all over again, isn’t it? You’re going to leave me again, aren’t you?”

“Have you seen any trace of Robin?”

“Mae.”

Her posture wilted. “I’m sorry, Jay. Yes. I don’t know how long it will be this time. I don’t know when I’ll feel that overpowering need to leave. I don’t know when I’ll come back.”

He bit his lower lip.

“Sweetheart, you know I would stay if I could.”

“I know. Maybe you sh…Maybe.” He exhaled a hard breath.

“Jay, I know this hard on you. If I could—”

“Maybe you shouldn’t come back.”

Maelin couldn’t breathe.

“Think of it, Mae. You’d be free. You won’t be torn between me and the freedom you really long for.”

She couldn’t think.

“You won’t have to worry about coming back here. You won’t have to worry about me missing you. You won’t have to deal with all of the daily Mark Caten dramas. You could live your life happily. You could be happy.”

She turned and left the room.

***

The door closed behind him and Maelin did not return to his side.

Jay exhaled a shaky breath.

She didn’t even try to tell me that I was wrong.

She left me.

He looked down at the delicate fey sleeping against his arm.

What would he give to be with the one he loves? To just see him again? And here I am verbally pushing her away. If he knew that I did this, he would be hurt. More hurt than me.

I can’t let it end like this.

I can’t let her leave on such a bad note.

I don’t want her to leave me.

Jay scooped Isellta into his arms..

Isellta startled and whimpered in his sleep.

“It’s okay, kid. I got you. I’m here. I won’t drop you. I won’t let you fall.”

He carried the young fey out of the monitor room.

Mae probably went back to my room. But what if she didn’t? What if she isn’t there? What if she left without even packing? What if she’s gone?

I want to run, but I don’t want to trip and fall on top of Isellta.

I want to run to her.

Mae, don’t leave me without saying a proper good-bye.

Jay walked faster.

Don’t leave me yet.

Don’t leave me.

Please don’t leave me.

He walked faster.

Please be in my room.

Please be there waiting for me.

Please don’t leave me.

Mae, please.

Jay tucked Isellta’s hands into a secure position and ran all the way back to his room.

Please be there.

Be there.

Be there waiting for me.

Mae, don’t leave me.

Don’t leave me.

4 thoughts on “Part 2141 – Jay Had To Say It.”

    1. I’ve missed you.

      It’s amazing. So many things have happened in my story from where you left off to where I am now. Some of the things were long-ranged planned. Others just popped out of nowhere, yet felt right story-wise. 🙂

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