Part 2045 – Messy Human Emotions

LM did not approve.

Such messy human emotions.

Such inappropriate behavior in front of her father AND the doctor. He could have waited until we all left the room.

Yet.

If Capernaum and Antioch were to enter the room fully alive, how would I react? I suppose it would be difficult for me to control my emotions.

But to that extent?

I hope not. It would be mortifying to demean myself in such a way.

The doctor scolded Raven, but the vampire didn’t seem to hear a word. Not a single word. He stayed focused on Missy and on kissing Missy’s hands.

The whole spectacle annoyed LM too much. He left the room.

He closed the door and leaned back against the wall.

Still.

What would it be like to feel that way towards someone?

He laid his hand above his heart.

Can I feel like that? Is it lying dormant within me? If I met the right person, would that feeling blossom and grow?

LM frowned.

Is that something I would even want? I don’t know. It seems like a lot of badly drawn lines. Scribbles. Unfathomable, nonsensical scribbles that can’t be sorted out or straightened.

His frown deepened.

If it can make someone as dignified as Raven act like that, no. I wouldn’t like it. I don’t want it.

Capernaum appeared next to him. “Is everything okay?”

LM’s frown lifted. “My dear friend, I am fine.” He smiled. “Now that you’re here, I’m better than fine.”

***

Capernaum returned LM’s smile.

Yet, that familiar ache remained.

I don’t belong here.

I want to go, but he isn’t ready to let me go. Will he ever be ready?

I wonder.

He contemplated the half-fey’s face, his rigid and crooked wings.

Maybe.

Maybe he isn’t the only one who can’t let go.

Capernaum’s smile turned more genuine. “My dear friend.”

***

Raven took off his gloves and held her face in between his bare hands. “I will take care of you, Missy. I promise. I will take care of you.”

She laid her hands on top of his. “I know.” She stroked his exposed skin. “You ran after me. You were in the fire. I remember you were in the fire. You found me?”

He nodded.

“You rescued me.”

“I did. My clothes were scorched. I had to wear Robin’s clothes.”

A grin spread across her face.

“It was horrible.”

“I wish I could have seen it. You must have looked wonderful all dressed up in clothes that weren’t butler clothes for a change.”

“I am uncertain if I looked wonderful or not. I could not bear to look at my reflection.” He shook his head. “I do not understand the concept of slacks having holes in their knees. Deliberate holes in their knees.”

She gasped. “You were exposing your knees?”

“Again, horrible.”

“No way could you exposing your bare knees be horrible. I really wish I could have seen that. Did you get to wear a sleeveless shirt with it?”

“Mercifully, no. Robin spared me that indignity.”

“No indignity in that. I like your arms. I like how they look and how they feel and being all wrapped up in them.”

“Oh, Missy.” He leaned forward and kissed her. “I’ve missed you so much.”

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